Hello everyone.
It’s been a good long while since I’ve updated this blog. I see now that I need to prioritize writing, but in a public way. What good is writing in my journal? (Well, for starters, it’s an excellent way to process all those gnarly emotions!) I guess I mean, what good is having all these thoughts progressing through time and space without talking about them (starting a conversation) to deepen the thought process?
I know there are like-minded souls who have similar questions as me. But it can feel lonely in my head when I don’t share these questions. There are many times in my life where I have felt isolated. Or maybe it’s that I’ve isolated myself by not having conversations in person with friends I trust because I fear the vulnerability required.
Maybe that’s all this is; fear of vulnerability. I’m afraid to be authentically, outwardly curious. Afraid to share my potentially controversial opinions about the world.
Do I really need to share all this? Or do I just need to express that I feel this way sometimes?
Why is it that some artists can be happy and cheerful on a (seemingly) constant basis? (Maybe it suits their style). What’s my style? Experimental, highly variable, saturated, INTENSE. It makes me nervous to thinking about sharing this mind of mine.
But I see now that I’ve got to!
Sharing my thoughts
It’s the least I can do.